The Most Brilliant Fucking Idea I Never Had

 
It should be here. It has to be.
 
I scan the desktop, reading off each Word Document title. After the third search, with no better result, I begin to question my sanity a little bit.
 
I wrote it. I know I did. The idea was brilliant. Revolutionary. So brilliant, in fact, that I had to drop everything and write it down right away. I crafted a few paragraphs, even. I’m sure if it.
 
But it isn’t here.
 
The Recycle Bin is full of discarded apps and photos, and one Word Document. Not the one I’m looking for, this one lists random words: obfuscation, incandescent, exsanguinate, sepulchral, etc. I curse to myself. Why would I delete this? I restore the document. But still, the one I am looking for isn’t here. I search the entire drive. I search my e-mail. I search my portable hard drive, the one I back up my entire technological life onto.
 
Nothing.
 
I lay down to go to bed. I stare up at the blank ceiling above, the abyss of darkness pressing on my eyeballs. Had I even written it at all? Or had I just imagined it? By the time I turn to set my alarm, I’ve gone through the stages. I’ve reached acceptance. I am crazy. I’ve convinced myself of something that never happened so completely, so thoroughly, that I swore it to be true. A sure sign of insanity.
 
Because I never wrote it down. Never.
 
But I still could, I think to myself. I open the Notes app on my phone, ready to start from scratch.
 
And there it is. Below my month old grocery list and above a list of song titles I couldn’t risk myself forgetting. It’s there.
 
It’s. Fucking. There.
 
Suddenly, all is right with the world again. I have not lost my brilliant idea, nor my sanity, and I’m so excited to continue with this brilliant fucking idea. I re-read it, eager and delighted. And you know what?
 
It really wasn’t that fucking brilliant, after all.
 
 

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